Dream as if You will Live Forever, Live as if You will Die Tomorrow

Another meeting, another turn. I am partially reliefed, yet partially burdened than ever. I feel tired, tormented, exhuasted and wondering whether the light is fading out. I stopped crying, but I could not stop feeling like drowning and have to constantly told myself to breath normally. Everytime I think about it, I still feel like I am short of breath and almost going to vomit. It is getting more and more difficult (with life).